So, Monday I will be getting bloodwork done for my new chemo that starts on Tuesday. It's not new, we have used it all before, none of it is new. Not to me anyway. So I am really not too sure of what the outcome is going to be. but we can always hope. I get these nasty shoys in my hips with this stuff, the shots, they hut...tremendoyusly. This is no ordinary shot, it looks like honey or Karo syrup trying to come out of a small syringe. And even the nurses dislike giving this shot. It makes their fingers(mostly thumbs) hurt. Then the other medicine, I take here at home, by mouth, it's just a little pill, then I take a dose of herceptin which requires my Benedryl which, Thank Goodness, requires a nap when I get home..
I deserve a nap on Tuesdays, lately however, I have been taking naps on almost a daily basis. Not sure why I was so tired all of the time, so I called the doctor. Dawn, his beautiful assistant told me that it's the cancer. I can handle that as long as we can get things back to normal. She say, it if things work quickly I should start getting some energy back before too long. Maybe these stabbing pains I am getting in my left side will go away too. That is definately the cancer.
What I need to do is ge this damn book finished or maybe we'll just put all of these blogs together and call it "memoirs of a dying woman" right T?
I was extremely impressed with my son the other day, Not that I am not always impressed with him but Tuesday was a little different. From the beginning, My son Bradley does not like to discuss my emminent death....ever! And normally we don't I hope to hang on until he's at the very least 18 and has some say so where his siblings are concerned.
Monday night Bradley came to me crying after we had a HUGE fight over how bad his temper was getting, and by this time I had told the kids the scans were not good and I had to have the results read to me and shown to me the next day. He came to me and apologized for throwing a temper fit and explained to me that he felt like he could not breath and the whole world was on his shoulders and he doesn't know what to do to make everything better or easier. What he needed to understand was that he couldn't. So I held him for a minute and asked him if he would like to go to the doctors office with me in the morning before school? He asked if that would be ok with Dr. Sbietan and I said it would and when my mother got here the next day, we went. I don't think my mother was too happy at first but the decision was mine to make, so I made it. Later I was glad that I did. Sometimes, Bradley can be very mature for his age and on Tuesday of this past week, he was exactly what I needed him to be.
Bradley saw the scans and he understands that what is happening is happening quickly. He also understands that my doctor will not lie to him and he knows that the meds I am taking are not going to make me sick. Funny when you can say things like "it's only" Herceptin or Arimadex or whatever. Kind of sad huh? But if it works, it'll be good for us. Please pray that it will.
OK, so, the new chemo starts Tuesday and tomorrow I will be going to the hospital to get my bloodwork for said chemo. Then, I will be transporting a bunch of boys to Galactic ice to go skating for Nick's birthday.
New question though? Had a muga scan on Thursday, is my heart strong enough for the herceptin? So many things to worry about.
If things aren't ok then what? Time to think about something else?
Let me tell you about the rest of the week. Katie and I went and got her wisdom teeth out, so she has been just a joy, and I hope she starts feeling better soon. Poor baby her whole face is swollen up and @ 15 I guess I just thought she would be a little more self-sufficient. I have not a problem helping her and loving her through it. But after 3 days I thought she would take her penecillin on time. However, I am glad she has backed off the pain meds so we can flush them. Hate those things, especially when one of my kids has to take them. Glad she really dislikes pills.
So much to tell, but the pills That I take are starting to kick my butt tonight! Good night all more tomorrow.
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